Two
days ago, the death counts were at 122,000, from the coronavirus infection
disease in the United States. These finest hours, more than 1500 beautiful
people had died within two days.
Additional 1500 loved ones shall mourn and
bury their loved dead, perhaps, from a distance or be left in the hands of
hospital Undertakers to bury them. They died lonely, alone, painfully and in
anguish from this deadly unknown disease, ravaging planet earth, yet most
fools, including politicians and leaders, continue to deceive our world
dwellers. This shit is real.
I
do not always comment on posts of strangers on Facebook. But last week, I made
a mistake. I trespassed into a conversation wherein the poster was ranting that
he had been made to wash his hands in a Lagos Pharmacy before he was allowed to
go into the drug store for purchases. How dared the pharmacy did that to him,
he whined!. I tried to explain to him that we live in strange times, so the
pharmacy had to put the policy in place to save lives against a raging
pandemic. The “social media influencer’ engager didn’t want to see the reason
for safety. His pride insulted and he felt coming to his space was a perfect
way to run the pharmacy outta town. He responded to me thus: “You lost It”. No,
my friend. I did “not lost it”. I lived it and survived to tell. I will tell
you that this shit is deadly. It is inconveniencing to family and loved ones,
your community and society.
The
disease infects you from different dimensions. Some lose a sense of smell, it
attacks others mildly and others it decimates rapidly, surged through the
weakest and vulnerable part of the body. It sneaks into you and like a
ferocious cancer disease, begins immediate havoc on your immune system.
On
my way home from my mechanic that Saturday afternoon, I suddenly felt a
flu-like chill. Earlier, I had complained to the young super mechanic, Rasaki
that I was very dehydrated under his garage. It was unseasonably hot in early
June. “Egbon, emu Gatorage”, ( bros, drink this Gatorade”), he tried to cheer
me up as I waited for my repairs. Soon after I left Rasaki, my friend and
brother, the great cartoonist, Tayo Fatunla called from London, we carried on
our conversation, occasionally informed him that “Omonla, I am getting tired
and dehydrated”.
“Azuhhh,
you ke, you dey sick?” He jabbed back. By the time I got home, I had been
soaked and smeared in my sweat. This was unreal. The coughs began to intensify.
I told my wife that I was feeling flu-like symptoms. I took a shower, swallowed
and went to sleep. That night, everything began to manifest. The signs
increased with a series of irregular breathing and gasping. By 9am I was at the
Urgent care and asked to be tested for flu-like symptoms and perhaps, COVID-19.
I came here hoping as an Urgent medicine outlet, my result would be instant.
No. I was tested and sent home. My result would be ready by the third day. I
was advised if symptoms increased I should go to the hospital or returned to
them.
Horrible
night of increased body attacks, my lungs closing on me, my oxygen level was
dropping. I didn’t understand what was happening. I was trying to wait it out
as recommended by the Urgent Center. I moved into another room in my home. I
suspected I had coronavirus and I must protect my wife and children:
self-isolate!. The coughs and heavy gasp series intensified. My wife brought me
dinner. I could not eat. My bathroom was less than two steps from the room, I
was scared to go to the bathroom. The simple things of living and existence,
normal daily exercise became painful and scary to perform as my body was under
attack. I stayed almost ten hours to go and “piss’ in the toilet, afraid I may
pass out. Each visit was a struggle for breath and oxygen. My wife cried. My
daughter, Nneka would call and screamed: “dad why won’t you go back to the
doctor”.
By
Monday, this thing had become a fight to live or die. Nneka called back and
threatened to call the Emergency Medical Service, EMS. Stubborn dad, but this
time, she must save her dad. She called Alhaja and told her. Alhaja ran to my
“self quarantined” space and became emotional:” whom are you going to leave me
and the children for?. Nneka is calling EMS”. Within minutes, the Ambulance
arrived and took me to the ER.
I
spent eight hours at the ER of this hospital here. The hospital did a rapid
test and confirmed that I had a Coronavirus infection. I tested positive.
However, all other diagnoses and my immune system indicated that I was among
the strong healthy people, 95% of the populace that would make it: I was
advised to just stay home, be patient and let it go through my immune system
and expel. I had no known underlying medical challenges such as High blood
pressure, heart disease, diabetes, or Cancer. So the hospital, because of the
surge in admissions and the public health crises, decided to discharge me that
night but warned that if my situation continued, I must return to the hospital.
My daughter ordered Uber to take me home.
The
hospital surrendered me to COVID-19. The virus got angrier. How dared I went to
the hospital. The next two days, it unleashed the most painful, powerful and
pathetic carnage on my body, ravaging me carelessly, like one infected with ten
powerful doses of malaria. His capture theatre was my lungs and breathe, the
coughs intensified. I was hopeless and useless. My four-year-old daughter would
breeze into my room:” dad how are you doing”, I couldn’t have a simple conversation
with her.
I
just waved at her, she looked sad, stood just to hug me. I refused. I told her
to go to mom and I would talk to her later. Imagine that. Poor girl. She got
disappointed as she walked to ask her mom to sadly ask her “why won’t dad talk
to me”. This is the part that most of you ignorant people out there may not
know about the emotional trauma grip this disease has on your loved ones. COVID
destruction is larger than you could imagine.
Instead
of me getting better, the fight became intensified: between me living or dying
in my damn bed. It’s been five days since I had a bowel movement. I couldn’t go
to the bathroom regularly without severe gasping. My “piss’ colour changed to
dark Lipton tea. No shave. No shower. No shit. Just pain, anguish and the fight
to live through the day. Every food bite was a struggle just to quickly chew
and swallow. I feared to choke by my own food. I was desperately losing oxygen.
The next afternoon, Nneka called back
EMS. It was getting really bad. Within five minutes, It arrived. The
technicians came upstairs, strapped me in the chair and wheeled me downstairs.
My home temp was 65 degrees. By the time they rolled me to the living room of
my home, I had collapsed.
I
subconsciously watched these healthcare providers load me into the Ambulance
with an assurance that “buddy you. are going to be fine. The calmness of the
environment that I was going back to the hospital re-energized my
consciousness. So I brought out my phone and pleaded with the Ambulance Med to
snap this picture, at least let my children see this if it’s the last take of
dad riding outta planet earth in style!” I like this guy. You have a silly
sense of humour”, I heard the guy said as he took the pictures. A group of
nurses and doctors had prepped up awaiting my arrival. They quickly rushed me
into the ICU: Intensive Care Unit. About four lifesavers on me. One grabbed my
hand, poked it, and immediately connected a drip:” Buddy you are going to be
alright. You are here now. We are going to take care of you”, another doctor
yelled at others.
These
guys were running passionately and with care to save a life. They were
dedicated and aggressive. My left hand became the blood depot of several types
of blood drawn. As one activity leaves, another replaces EKG, done, blood
pressure, done other vital things were happening fastly. I was still gasping
heavily. My lungs were closing in on me. I was immediately hooked onto the
oxygen to regulate and assist with my breathing. This shit was becoming too
real. Thanks to my daughter who rebelled against dad. It was chaos in there to
save me.
Two
hours after I got to the ICU, the hospital stabilized me. I was moved to the
ICU Unit and told I was on admission. The infection doctor shall see me in the
morning. I still could not eat or piss. I sat in the ICU alone and lonely. Its
been about nine hours of the fight to stay alive. I had never been in this
situation with my life. What would happen to my children and my wife?. So this
was how I would go out in a blaze of the pandemic? Why are people careless about
this disease with an unknown cure?. Why can’t people follow simple scientific
cautions to live in strange times?
This
is not about “ I reject it in the name of Jesus”, or “its not my portion” or
reject it in the name of any “Foreign Gods, Inc’, apologies to my mentor, Prof
Okey Ndibe. This is real. This is deadly. Covid-19 is not selective. It does
not give any gate pass to any paradise. It ravages everything you love: family
and friends. Imagine the long walk to recovery, assuming you are one of the
lucky ones: the trauma and disturbance or obstructions to your daily normal
lives, the unnecessary intrusions into your organized “jeje’ lifestyle. Within
three days, the coronavirus infections advanced wickedly into my immune system
and determined to scatter me before deadly exit. But my daughter’s constant
harassment stood “gidigbam”. She sensed something, aided and abetted by my wife
who was on the phone with her.
That
first night at the ICU, I began to plan my burial. I wrote down everything. It
was the most fearful, yet sincere acceptance of faith assignment I would ever
undertake. I did not wish for my children to carry the financial burden of
running around with their money to plan my burial. I guess Nneka and her
sisters would be mad at me now for the real reason I sent each money from the
hospital. I surrendered my daily activities to them, especially Nneka, to pay
outstanding bills while I was waiting to live or died.
The
next morning came fast and fresh. The infectious disease doctor came into my
room and wanted to talk to my family member. I called my daughter and us
-conferenced. The doctor informed us that yea, I had contacted the severe part
of the infection and I was a candidate for the new aggressive remdesivir trial medicine
which seemed the only approved medication in the medical research to deal with
the deadly disease. He further told us I shall be at the ICU for six days. The
medication would be administered intravenously once a day every 4 pm for five
days. My lungs and Oxygene level needed to heal and be steadied. It was going
to be a long road to wellness, recovery, and stay in the hospital. He assured
my daughter that because of my immune system and no known medical challenges in
my health history, I should make a perfect recovery, but it would take time and
patience.
No
family deserves to go through these sudden and emotional interruptions in daily
life’s activities. No matter the doctors’ assurances, there are still
apprehensions, fears, anxieties and trauma on your loved ones.
I
stayed in the hospital for 12 days, inside ICU, I couldn’t shower or shit,
alone and lonely, connected to my dearest loved ones and friends by phone
calls, video calls, and facetime: I
began to plan my burial. I had to surrender everything to Nneka. Alhaja is
still navigating her ways in this new frontier. It would be too overwhelming
for her. My daughters became her Guardian angel and support group, nursing both
of us. Imagine how a strong organized disciplined life suddenly changed. Within
a few days I had gone from one of the healthiest hustlers, husbands and goofy
dads on planet earth to a helpless Giant on the slabs of a hospital ICU bed,
perhaps, waiting to die.
I
chose to write these with the hope and encouragement that those still ignorant
would take this public health crisis seriously. It doesn’t matter where you are
on planet earth, whether you are in Obodo Oyibo (USA, Britain, Italy, France),
or you are somewhere in my dearest native land of Onicha Ugbo, COVID-19 is
surging. People that are not supposed to die are dying. More shall die. The
United States Center for Disease Control has predicted that 150,000 more people
shall die by the end of July. If I can save one life from this writing, then I
had played my part as a survivor of the deadly disease.
I didn’t have to reveal so many things here.
But because I had been informed that at least I reached about 2,3Million
contents, readers and followers, on my social media handles, I painstakingly
decided, this morning, to tell the truth, share the other emotional impact of
my experiences, perhaps, to help educate and save lives. This shit is real. I
hope you will see the other side of this disease, the incredible sad effects on
your loved ones. When this happens to you, it takes down your family. It
affects everyone including your circle of friends.
This
shit is real. I
shall write again.
*Please
the prayers helped and its enough. I thank you for your prayers. I would rather
you took this seriously and help save your life so as not to put your family
through this sad experience. Please continue to pray for the world and take
this damn thing seriously. Protect yourselves. It will alter your life if it
affects you. I do not wish this on my worst enemy. No human being deserves this
painful experience to live, die, and maybe live again.
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